I'm a suffering, wimpy Canadian
LazyIt's hot and humid in stupid Victoria, Canada
I feel like somebody dumped lukewarm maple syrup all over me while I was sleeping
The air is thick, sticky and clings to me like a blanket of cellophane
but, I'm sure it's much worse down South. I do not mean that in a sexual sense
This is no time to get wimpy, though! Colin invited me to the beach with his buddy from Calgary to go skimboarding
...I am dreading it.
I hate my swimsuit with a passion, but I'm too fucking broke to get something more... suitable
(hehe, pun)
I am ridiculously body-shy. If it was just Colin and I, maybe I'd be a little more comfortable, but it's not.
Mr. Calgary is also bringing his ol' Victorian girlfriend
who I am assuming to be better looking than me
I know that sounds silly, but I'm so.. so... mediocre. And I don't wanna prove it at the stupid beach
Anyway, my money issues are driving me crazier than my appearance
I am unemployed and a lazy fuck
I could probably get hired easily, since I've got experience and training already, but.. but... I really don't feel like getting back into the groove of working 5 days a week.
Besides, summer is only 2 months long... last time I worked, I barely got to enjoy it. And, I had to quit at the end of summer due to my poor schedule-balancing skills.
I guess I'll just remain broke. 20 bucks a month isn't so bad, right? Well, yes. I can't get by on that.
How will I afford movies?!
Speaking of which, I saw Kung Fu Panda, The Happening, and Get Smart.
Kung Fu Panda was really fun to watch!
The Happening was kinda stupid. They should rename it "WHEN TREES ATTACK"
Sure, it had a meaning, "We are a threat to this planet." But, I don't think it's very likely to be attacked by plants. Well, they didn't really jump out and attack, rather, they released chemicals which somehow switched off the self-preservation nature in humans, causing mass suiside.
The whole, "omg scienctific!!" evidence to support this was almost equal to nothing. Anyone who passed grade 10 biology would know what they were talking about, and that it wasn't a very specific or probable explanation. It was all very vauge and ridiculosly over-drammatic.
Needless to say, The Happening wasn't scary at all. It was just highly improbable, which made it hard to get scared. I mean... Plants attacking. Plants?? PLANTS? Gee.
Get Smart looked kinda cheesy at first glance, but it surprised me with excellence! I thought it was great. Very funny stuff, especially compared to all the other comedy movies playing at the moment.
Anyway, what else should I complain about?
Oh, yes, drinking!
I mean, a little is okay once in a while, but jesus christ, why do people go all out and get completely shit-faced? It's awful.
...Did you know that women are twice as much as affected by alchohol than men? That means, when Mrs. Lady drinks 1 glass, it is equivilant to 2 glasses drank by Mr. Man.
I learned that from TV!!
But what really bothers me is my father's drinking habits.
The way he acts--ugh, it makes me wish his liver would just fail already.
A week ago, yesterday, I was ignoring his hurtful, drunken words as usual, when he suddenly got angry with me. I brushed it off and told him that he was just being a "stupid drunk," and at this, he saw red. In a blind rage he grabbed me, by the head, and threatened to "end it right there." He shook me and said more nasty things, which by then I was in a hysterical fit of sobs. When I finally squirmed away, I darted for the phone, but he took it away and began to appologize.
He said it was just the influence of the alchohol, and that he'd never drink nor threaten me like that again.
He still scares me, though. Seeing him scares me, now. I can't look at him without seeing that angry man who threatened to end my life.
Also, he broke his promise. Just yesterday, there he was, again, clutching a glass of that damn wine.
I am so fucking sick of him!
...ooh, that was a pretty personal rant. I'm okay, though. Might as well let it all out, it doesn't bother me that much anymore. It just pisses me off.
Wow, what a long journal.
..Did you actually read all that? If you did, post a ref of one of your characters.
You deserve something for doing such a thing. Really, you do. It makes me glad that anyone actually takes the time to read into my life.
It means a lot, really, so let me do something for you.
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Devious Comments
I'm really sorry to hear about your dad too. I think anyone would feel nervous or wary around him after that! He shouldn't have let himself get so bad in the first place so the apology is kind of void to me. He needs to learn self-control for the sake of his daughter jesus. I hope you're alright and he eventually gets his act together. I know how you feel a bit, in the past I'd just need to rant about that sort of thing and the whole broken promise type feeling really blows D: If he ever tries to hurt you again, break the bottle on his face dude.
I no give ref because you shouldn't have to draw for something as simple as listening!! Draw something that makes you laugh 8)
Like an octopus masturbating
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also I saw kung-fu panda yesterday and it was fanttassstiiic
but about drinking, it's really horrible and I know alot about it because everyone over the age of 14 drinks because they are all idiots
but with your dad, I hope everything works out
maybe you should just throw all of the alcohol in your house out
and say it was the
cat
and I read everything but you don't need to draw anything fer me.
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bweem me up, hotty ;;
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don't be body shy! i used to be, too, but i kinda just got over it. i pretty much realized that no one really cares all that much. n_n "any one who cares doesn't matter, and anyone who matters doesn't care" kinda thing, yanno?
i haven't seen too many movies, though i did see kung fu panda. it was pretty funny, i liked it too. get smart i haven't seen. the happening i havne't even heard of xD sounds kind of interesting but crappy, based on your review
man, i'm really sorry about your dad. that's terrible... i don't really know what to say. i think you should call the police or something? he says he won't do it again, but that man sounds like an alcoholic, and alcoholics can't stop drinking all that easy. and when he's drinking, he's not going to have that much control over his actions, and you never know what might set him off like that again. it'd be a good idea to try to get him into rehab or something.
if this is too personal, it's ok and just dont' answer, but where's your mother?
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you may not be trying to prevent death but that doesn't mean that you'll go kill yourself, right?
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My mom's a nurse who often works long night shifts, so most of the time she just isn't there when I need her
without self preservation people just... wouldn't be very cautious. Like, they wouldn't look both ways when crossing the road!! not kill themselves suddenly
All the scary pictures of people hanging and shooting themselves didn't phase me because I was too busy going "What the FUCK are they talking about?"
The only explaination at the end was that it was "a random act of nature we will never understand!!!!" fffffffff lame
I'm alright now, thanks a ton (: And I'll remember that, haha
......how would an octopus masturbate? okay maybe you shouldn't answer that
but still
I-I have never seen octopus genitals
do they even have them??
oh god
maybe I'm just jealous
baaahh
drinking is okay once in a while as long as it doesn't control your life
I'll admit to being rather fond of ciders and margaritias
it's just stupid to over-do it, you know? With the throwing up and acting weird, then it's stupid
haha I think he'd be very angry if I did that, and I have no cat to take the blame u_u
the overdoing is just stupid, especially if you're 13 and enjoy having brain cells
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bweem me up, hotty ;;
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